It’s my birthday.

Hit 19 and soon my age will start with a 2. Ain’t young any more. 
My friend’s brother passes away. My friend is very close to me and i almost teared while hearing the news. Was thinking about death these few nights and i swear i never knew it would happen and occur within my friends so soon. I am not afraid of dying but i am afraid of losing people I love. I am equally clueless about how and what i should do to better prepare myself . Sadness is something real and being sad is not a bad thing, it’s something we all have to cope and handle. 

Joshua talked to me not too long ago and I really really am amazed by our friendship. Although he admits some fault at his part, i too admitted my part. It was mature and his courage touched me. To revisit the “awkwardness” and the flaws. Awesome guy. 

Cheers to how I have grown. Very imperfect but that don’t matter actually. 
 
I will admit that i’m one of the most curious guys ever. I love to ask questions resulting in stupid Q to be asked. And i hope my curiosity will bring me somewhere one day. 

Curiosity killed the cat, but the cat don’t matter. (Non-sadist)  

I envy each of …

I envy each of my friends for something they have. I know i’m not perfect, sometimes there’s beauty to that. To live life beautifully without the fear of other people enclosing their perception on you. 
I got my driving license.
I got a wonderful girlfriend.
Thank God I flirted with the right one.
Out of the many in the past, I always questioned if they are the one.
You know it when you know it.
Sometimes i hope that my friends don’t try too hard.
Being BOLD and RECKLESS gets the fun and happiness sometimes. 

Purpose change the world.

While everyone has their fill, I haven’t had mine. Which was great because i was sober enough to hear drunk people talk sober thoughts.

Me: Since you are training, are you trying hard for IVP?
Him: No.
Me: WHY!!!!
Him: Cause…. I ammmmmm DONEE! 

Even though i was supposed to laugh at you speak rubbish all, 
it all collapsed on me this sadness which i find it familiar.

Only when will we know we have reach our limit?
In this case my friend determined his own limits and in most cases,
all of us determined how far we go.

Everyone wants to succeed, we all set great goals and targets.
Do you know, when we reached our goals and targets
we will
fail to dream. 
Unless of course we set goals of greater heights.

Not only physically. Emotionally and spiritually we set a limit to ourselves as well.
Our goal, our destination is our limit.
Doing things without a goal will deem aimless in our convenience.
Doing things with a purpose gets us going all the way, it makes sure we don’t stop, no matter how slow we go, no matter where we go, we are sure we are going in the right way.

If some of you is so cynical and asked what if we walked in circles, then i say their purpose was to walk in circles in the first place. 

What if we set limits on care and love?
That won’t do love justice. 
When will a lover/ bestfriend know she has done and withstand enough?
She/He doesn’t know.
In situations like this, humans have to come out with something, an excuse or anything to back and evidently support their reasons why they want to end the relationship.
Because we are all afraid of getting hurt too much.
The world has seen too many cases of, ” I will marry you, but if things don’t work out, divorce”
or ” I love you but I can’t stand too much pain and heart aches.”

If we do things with a purpose, eg: ” I’ll make you the center of my life.”
“Rest of my life is dedicated to make us happy.”
“I don’t want to lose you because you are special.”

Purpose: If you have your eyes on the prize, nothing else matters.
We born into this world as humans and have inevitably taken an oath when we were sperm like that says, ” We are set to be imperfect.”
And if anyone has strayed away from their purpose, forgive them.
But if anyone has lost their purpose, let them go. 

I was thinking about what you want so much in the first place that I am afraid you staying would be so selfish. 
I am really relieved that you got it, that’s your purpose for leaving things behind.

No one can have anything if they don’t have purpose.
Consider it quoted by me.

To involve

No one can save themselves if they don’t want to be saved. Some chose religion some chose others. 
Why Jesus?
You will never know how it feels if you don’t belong and participate in it.
I’ve already admitted that i am of no good, and my best in this area would be very shallow and unconvincing to many.

~ In many ways, the work of a critic is easy. We risk very little yet enjoy a position over those who offer up their work and their selves to our judgement. We thrive on negative criticism, which is fun to write and to read. But the bitter truth we critics must face is that, in the grand scheme of things, the average piece of junk is probably more meaningful than our criticism designating it so. But there are times when a critic truly risks something, and that is in the discovery and defense of the new. The world is often unkind to new talents ó new creations. The new needs friends. Last night, I experienced something new, an extraordinary meal from a singularly unexpected source. To say that both the meal and its maker have challenged my preconceptions about fine cooking is a gross understatement. They have rocked me to my core. In the past, I have made no secret of my disdain for Chef Gusteau’s famous motto: Anyone can cook. But I realize only now do I truly understand what he meant. Not everyone can become a great artist, but a great artist can come from anywhere. It is difficult to imagine more humble origins than those of the genius now cooking at Gusteau’s, who is, in this critic’s opinion, nothing less than the finest chef in France. I will be returning to Gusteau’s soon, hungry for more.~ Anton Ego
 
While I wait for that big miracle to hit me, I’ll be praying and
I will participating. 

Quite mindless to some but surely faith is needed.

My daily views are 3 people. and i think i only let 4-5 ppl know. so i know you are reading this and i want to let you guys know i love you all so much. heh.

Sometimes I don’t even know what i have if not for people telling me and having reminders along the way. It’s really so beautiful to have you right now. Our friends are so jealous of us. Like i’ve always believed, there is no such thing as honeymoon period in a relationship. It’s always constant effort and those little little silly things that make us go gaga all over again. I’ll keep you

I’m such a typical.

and i don’t know what to do cause i’m feeling helpless.
I am guilty for everything and now i confess.
It seems like talking to you or not will both have something  negative done to you.
I really don’t know what to do.
I just hope to make you feel a little better.

Sometimes I need to ask myself if I have a better brain or a better heart.
Better dick more like.

Secrets that you 2 hold, guard me.

Flights.

We all can walk down a flight of steps blind folded simply because there is consistency in each steps.
There is no fear walking in to the dark if we know what is coming.